Letter 4.

Even when I read book I think about you. When my brain is in other world, I'm thinking still  about you. I want to write to you' hi schatz! alles klar? ich liebe dich!' but I'm afraid. I want to tell you how much I'm missing you. I close my eyes and I see your face, I look from window and I see us when we walked, I go out and I see shop with your name, I lean against the wall and I feel your touch. It's sick, it's love.
I don't know still what's happened and I don't want to know. I want to again see you.
I regret I didn't be longer there. I could be with you longer. I'm stupid.

Tomorrow I'll go. Oh full stress. All day I was packing my bags. It's goog I'll have the Internet :) But in other site I don't need it. We don't talk, still. nix gut.

Letter 3.

I'm thinking about you too much. I want to be with you, I miss you and I still watch our pictures.  I want to go to Gdynia. Now. I want to stop thinking.
Write to me.. please..

Oooh! I just attacked box of cookies. It's sick!

Fertig..

So we ended up. And it's really painfull because I never was angry. I was sad but not angry and now you write to me ' you have many problems'. Because what? Because I want to writing with you, I want to knowing what's up with you ?
Now it's egal. I will not write. Any contacts. I'm thinking it was cool for you when you had polands girlfriend. At the moment when your best friend broke up with my polands girlfriend you thought ' I can do it too'. So kein problem. Boring toy ist weg.
I'm feeling bad with that because you are still important for me. And what's happened? a few days ago you was writing you miss me, you love me, and now? haha.

Everything it's ok.

Fears and phobias

Preparations for moving out underway. I don't want to go out. I'm afraid. I don't know anybody and city is too big for me. Ohh I'm scared. Big mess in my head and in my room. It's terrible. I've two days and no plans.
All what I'm thinking are you. But we still don't talk. Ohh You still don't talk with me. It's sad. I'm thinking it's because Beata a Chris broke up. Ohh nvm.. I miss you and i can't stand when I see our picture every time when I turn on my computer.

Letter 2.

 Today was my first day at new school. A lot of new people and places. I'm terrified and excited...

But I can't tell you about that because you're angry of me. Yes, you have reason but I too. So? I apologized, you? didn't. But I'm missing you. I'm so angry and sad when we don't talk.  I know! You've school and work and not enough time. But i remeber when you was saying 'i love you', 'you are the best things of my life', 'I want to have future with you and two childs'. I remeber... all moments in German when you was holding my hand, kissing my lips and saying 'oh man'. It was so sweet, so lovely. I miss that. I miss you.

Letter 1.

Hi Honey!
We seldom talk so I'll write here to you. All things which a want to tell you but I don't have the courage. Yes, I've a few words which I thought but never said you.
For example how much I'm missing you. I miss your voice, your smell, your touch. And it's queer because I know you only 2 months. Even not 2.
I'm so happy when you write that you want to leave with me. I want it too. But now I've school and ehhh... I can go to you in february. I want, but we'll see...
Sometimes I think I'm only Summer Love for you. Seriously. And it's painfull. All my friends say ' ohh it;s stupid! It's too long way! He'll find a new girlfriend and you should forget!' But I don't want to forget. I want you.. You, not love for 1 day and 4 days pause. You always.