I love my new life. My flat is nice, my flatmates are friendly and my new friends are great! School can be ok. I want to be engineer so I must to know technical drawing, technical write and english in the field of logistics. It's disaster ^^
I didn't talk with Pierre and I know we will not talk. Natala said yesterday 'it's not painful for you'. No. It was painful and maybe still is. But I don't have to show this.

I hate it when you write to me one sentence and then don't answer. Leave me alone...

What  is wrong with you? When I think that I can let you go, suddenly you writing to me? Why? Why now? When your best friend delete me from facebook friends - yes, i don't understand it too, cause i didn't talk with him or anything.  It was your choice and then you wrote something what i can't understand. Language barrier is difficult to overcome...

My swim teacher likes me, i don't have to make up for the absence of and I can swim like I want. It's good, very good.

I like this evening. I lie with Emilia on my bed and we watched talk show, stupid 'rozmowy w toku' and funny 'kuba wojewodzki'. Drink water and eat popcorn. Nice. She asked me about you, ohh and now you're online but nobody writes. I still miss you. But it's ok. In next year we'll meet and I gonna say you that it's too late, we can be friends. It's all what I can give you. I hope it gonna be. You'll see me and you'll think 'oh it was stupid she is a really nice girl' I hope.. And I hope I gonna have enough strenght for say that.

Yesterday nice evening and today too strong coffee. I don't need watch facebook non stop. No more. I feel good.
I want to subscribe to the rescue team. More schedule - less thinking.

I miss you...

To je Niemiec! Tego nie zrozumiesz...
So what? We was writing. And I don't understand anything. You asked do I come to you or not. Then you said I should stay in Poland. And on the night you write you love me? you don't want to lose me? You want with me a future? Ohh. I don't know what I should thinking.  I miss you. I love you. I want you. Ohh and now I have big mess on my head. First you say 'i'm to young it's bad for me when I have got girlfriend in other country' and then 'i love you i want to be with you' and then you don't say anything. You're quiet. Ohhh you make me crazy!

First weekend on the study and I'm siting on the sofa with big notebook. Series with chips and cola vs mechanika techniczna. Tv watching is better ^^
Oh oh. Today I was enough strong to change pictures on the telephone. We wrote today. Hmmm wrote ^^ we sent two messages but it's progress. I don't hope.

I was on the beach first time in this year. Might I gonna love this place. But I didn't meet anybody, so lonely evening again. And I'm sure, without you on skype...